Ningyou (translation) - Ai Otsuka

Wanting to be a good girl
i gave up all my freedom
even i would have become a boy
if mother had wished for it

I was chubby little girl walked around
stab my feet on shards of glass
heading towards my own execution ground

I feel no pain, i feel no joy
starting from the surface of my face
my heart is slowly dying

All i wanted was friend
so i just said YES to everything
all i ever wanted was someone who treat me gently
so i moved in with a man

If i only had taken more care
then i could've become more human
instead this, emotionless doll

This pain i feel, this loneliness i feel
but no one is here to save me

I'll try my best in the city
and wish upon a star :
"i want to be a human"

Mimpi yg aneh. . .

hyammpuun. . .

skrg sw mo crita ttg mimpi super dodol w =_='. . .

ok qt mulai, START !

crita'a !!
d neh mimpi syalan w balik lgi k masa TK. . .
maksud w,, w balik kya dlu msih TK. . . *mulai dri badan w ampe pkiran w*
lanjutt !
jdiii pada suatu hari *dalem mmpi w*, w dah ad d dlm rumah kosong padahal sebelumnya w lgi jln2 ma nyokap w k dufan. . .
aneh ya bsa lgsung berubah tmpat gtu ?
hahahahaha,, mka'a w jga namain "Mimpi yg aneh. . ."
nah w kan mank penakut tuh, lgsung ja w triak "MAAMAAAAAAA !!!!!" dengan suara vol. max dan muka pucet kaya melon yg jatoh ==' *maklum lah khan w kan pnakut*
tpi triakan w manggil2 nyokap w di jawab jga ma nyokap w, kta'a "iya kaaaaa', bntar niih"
w sempet mikir Alhamdulillah ya Allaaaaaaaaaaahh. . .
tpi cma dalam hitungan 5 detik pikiran w lgsung berubah waktu ngelyad nyokap w muncul d hadepan w. . . (pembaca : lah knp g sneng ?? w : dah baca aje dlu !)
karena. . .
karena. . . . . .
KARENA !!!!!!
*ihh apasih w* hahaha, lanjuuuuud !
karena muka nyokap w brubah jadi kaya badut MCd, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh !!
secara dlu w tkut bgd ma tu badut syalan, ngapp cba mke muncul d mimpi syalan ni ??
hahaha, w dah ktakutan stengah idup tu wktu ngelyad nyokap w !
tpi tba2 muncul suara yg gajelas drmn muncul'a, yg pzti tu suara blg gni "klo kmu mau mama kamu balik kya' dlu lg maka kamu harus naikin tangga d rumah ini ampe lante paling atas !", dan pada saat suara itu ngmng gtu k w, w bru nyadar klo tu rumah syalan emg gde (?), tpi isi'a cma ada tangga yg berbentuk spiral di seisi rmh dan ya Allaah. . .
lantai paling atas'a tinggi bgd bused dahh !
tpi demi balikin muka nyokap w, w bela2in tuh lani naikin tangga syalah n nyokap w jga ngikutin w dri blakang. . .
w jga heran d sni w lari'a kuat bgd yah ??
akhir'a w bsa naik ampe lantai yg ada d pling tengahh, w brhenti dlu d sno soal'a w dah ngos2an n PEGEL BGD !!
udh nyampe d lantai yg pling tngah2, w mo ngelyad apakah muka nyokap w dah blik ato blm dan ternyata,,,,, muka nyokap w stengah normal stegah badut !!
jdi muka nyokap w tuh kaya kebagi2 dgn garis vertikal, yg sebelah kanan rambut'a udh blik panjang lg secara wktu TK nyokap blm mke jiblab, pko'a yg bgian sbelah kanan dah kaya nyokap w yg biasa'a deh,,,, tpi masalah'a yg bgian kiri th msih jdi badut MCd !!!!!
sangking takut'a w langsung ngebutt ke lntai pling atas, n w tinggal 1 anak tangga lagi nyampe atas yg iya'a pada saat itu w nengok k blakang k nyokap w dah balik seutuh'a,, hurraaayy !
tpi emg bkn rejeki w, akir'a w pun jatoh ntah knp tu tangga syalan dah rapuh sii kya'a. . .
w jatoh ampe lantai bawah tanah tu rmh !!
aneh'a di lantai bawah tanah itu tuh ada kasur w !
alhasil w mendarat dgn sukses d atas kasur w sndri, tpi sblm'a w mesti ter-"boing-boing" dulu d atas kasur, ga lama kemudian ada suara nyokap w manggil,, "kakaaaaaaaaa' !!". . .
di bagian tu w dah ngebayangin nyokap w ikut2an jatoh n mo nimpa w =_=. . .
tba2 sekeliling w jdi terang, n ngitu w lyad tnyata nyokap w lg bgunin w sambil nge-shake2 badan w k kanan k kiri. . .
tpi w bersyukur tu semua HANYA MIMPI. . .
wkwkwkwkwk~

Eiri n Cossette serasi bgd. . .

sayang ending'a bukan happy ending :'(

Le Portrait De La Petit Cossette

Sumpah keren bgtss ni anime. . .

Mana Cossette'a maniss abisssssss !!

Gothic bgddddddddddddd !!

Past

always try to hide my feeling. . .
always try to forget anything about that. . .
try to move your presence, in my heart. . .
but,,
deep inside my heart. . .
i always try to hold your presence in my heart. . .
always wait, and wait for your presence.

Freedom

If i have a wing
I will fly thousand miles
And reach the freedom
I'm not a bird in a cage
I'm not a shackle soul
I'm a wanderer
Who search a 'freedom'

. . .

adakah seseorang yang mencintaiku sepenuh hati dan rela mengorbankan nyawanya sendiri yg berharga ?

- Cossette D'Auvergne -

Le Potrait de la Petit Cossette

You..

When no one else could find the way to my heart,,

you did. . .

When no one could break my heart,,

you can. . .

When no one else had a hold on my heart,,

you did and you don't ever know it. . .

I'm Here. . .

I'll be the shoulder you can cry on,
The one that's there to listen & to care,
The one that's always here,
I'll be the person you can rely on,
The one that you can call friend,
The one that will stick to you till the end,
But through all this promise me this,
You won't die, cuz then i'll die on the inside,
I'll cry outside, i'll hate life even more,
& eventually that will lead to the knife & i'll end my life. . .